Before I share, I have a confession to make. Sometimes I avoid community. Recently, I reached out to someone and admitted I bypassed an opportunity to connect with an entrepreneurial community. I just didn’t feel like it.
Before facing my own pain, I thought it was safe to hide in the pews. I won’t forget the Sunday I had enough with God. As a praise and worship leader, you want people to enjoy service. I had reached a breaking point, and all I could do was cry.
This week I created a not fair list to God. Believe it or not, the list was not my idea. I was staring at a blank sheet of paper and then heard pretty clearly, “Write your list.” For those of you who are wondering if God spoke with a booming voice or with a thunderous sound as in the Ten Commandments movie, He did not.
For at least four years, I had a secret beef with God. I was upset with our infertility journey. I was angry I had to keep sharing the love of Jesus when I was mad God didn’t answer our prayers.
I love Dr. Tony Robinson and thank God for a conversation she had with me recently. She asked me a question I never thought about “What are you meant to ignite?” I am someone who becomes concerned about everything. With this concern comes the need to fix things. Fix this relationship. Settle this score. Defend the seemingly helpless. God did create me to be concerned, but He did not ask me to do His job.
Directly confronting the walls of the church, Minister Ashley Sauls takes an internal and personal look into the role and practice of ministry as defined by the scripture. At its’ core is the question she asks herself and the question she poses to fellow ministry leaders: Are we saving souls?