I’ve been addressing wounds that I thought healed. It hasn’t been easy. It’s always a painful process when you experience the initial cuts and are waiting for the healing process to take place. Some wounds are easier to get over and heal from than others. When I get a paper cut, it stings, but I get over it. Other cuts go much deeper and require a more thorough level of healing. A flesh wound is a different degree of pain and needs a specific treatment plan to heal properly.
As much as I love the science of things, I promise we aren’t going to spend forever on the science of wounds. I believe that we all agree that wounds can happen and they all need healing. Back to my experience this week, I felt like wounds (recent and in the past) were trying to keep me hurting. A few times I shared with a few good friends that I was experiencing anger (something that is not true to who I am). A couple of occasions this week, I felt like quitting because the pain I was feeling was too great.
I even thought back to “easier” times when I didn’t have the same level of discomfort. We’ve all had friends leave us and disappoint us. It is different when those disappointments are from people we love deeply. It feels like a deeper cut. We’ve all had times of sadness or hurt. It is different when that hurt is recurring, and we are assessing a new degree of damage. I can’t speak for you, but I reached a point when ouch was not good enough. I wanted relief, and I wanted it immediately. Well, by rehashing all of my current hurt it was not helping me to heal. Please do not get me wrong; there is nothing wrong with being honest about your hurt. Admitting that you hurt is the first step, but we cannot be healed by just realizing that we hurt. In these times worship is one of the healing agents for our wounds.
I can already hear what you think because I am sure that I have said the same things:
- I don’t feel like expressing the joy of the Lord. I am not happy about this.
- Sing a song? How about you do what you said, God?
- I am too exhausted to do anything else. These challenges are nothing to be “excited” about.
- God understands how I feel, so I am going to sing again when everything gets “better.”
Even if you haven’t used the same exact words, you can feel where I am coming from. Worship in a wounded state seems counterintuitive to everything that is going on. Why thank God for an outcome that you haven’t seen? Why rejoice in each moment knowing good and well everyone knows it’s been a struggle for you? Why keep singing and celebrating God’s goodness through the whirlwinds? Worship invites God into our lives, and He can address and confirm who He is.
I want to give you an exercise in worship. Just start singing (or humming if you aren’t a singer) How Great Thou Art. You may be reluctant when you start. You may want to hurry up so you can check this off of your “task list.”
When you get to the chorus and remember:
Then sings my soul
My Savior God to thee
How Great thou Art
How Great thou Art
The situation may still be dark, but we worship knowing that His light shines in our lives.
People may continue disappointing us, but God has stuck around every time!
Friends and family may turn away, but God is greater than their abandonment.
I may hurt, but I’m healed every time I come to God with my wounds and present them to Him. Just as a little child can say “ouch” and know their parent will bandage their injury, we can receive the same comfort.
I may not know you personally or your hurts, but I know someone who does. Worship is one of God’s love languages, and He does respond to us in our times of thanking and honoring Him.
Are you wounded? Do you want to heal? Spend time in worship this week as God heals your wounds.